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I could probably say this was the shittiest x-mas ever, but that's probably going overboard. It could have been a lot worse, but it was pretty rancid. Presents were just as pathetic as Mom kept saying, but that's so not what is important to me. It was just the fact that I could remember years before coming downstairs and seeing our tree absolutely surrounded and it just made me happy to know that we COULD afford things. Or rather, we couldn't, but Mom managed somehow. *sigh*I did get what I wanted though, and I kept telling Mom the best present is that she's alive. Two x-mases ago, it wasn't a certainty that she would be. It was great to be with Ash all day too. I got the LOTR Extended version, the new Disturbed CD, a calendar, razor blades, "The Patriot" on VHS, and a candle. The candle was sort of like, "uhhhhh..." but I love them so who cares. Ash was so excited because she got me a LOTR poster, and I love it.Went to Mamaw's and saw the family. Dad actually showed up, albeit an hour late, and he was sick. But he gave me a shell necklace, 45 bucks, and some Pez, plus a letter saying how he was sorry he's been a shitty dad and how he wants to have a relationship now. I'm not sure how to react to that. When I have time to actually think about it, it might sound all right. At the present time, however, it sounds like a bunch of bullshit.Now I'm home and I'm more sad than ever, but it's all right. I'll be all right. I always am.Plus, I got enough money to get "Dangerous Lady" and to buy Ash the Revo Styler for her birthday. She'll be 17 on Friday. That's just insane to me.Off to order mucho Jason goodness.